So this is a multi-purpose post which hopefully will not be too abrupt. This past weekend I went to Berlin (for the first time!!) and I was so excited. Unfortunately a few hours after arriving I was struck with a stomach illness. Did I let that get me down? Nahh. I still went to the Black Keys concert in an abandoned warehouse (no, I’m not sure it really is an abandoned warehouse but it definitely looked like one) although I had to sit on a bench in the back since I couldn’t properly stand without feeling like death was upon me. The subway was actually the death of me, we had to get off every other stop for me to become violently ill and to cool down before continuing. Yet, there were highlights like the Ritter Sport World and G-Man and I making our own chocolate bars. I made one with coconut macarons, little m&ms, and gingerbread pieces in milk chocolate. G-Man made his with gingerbread pieces, dried strawberry bits and chili pepper. His was way better which was hard to admit since I can actually make the chocolates myself, but there you have it. His was magic and mine was a weird combo.
Berlin was freezing too, unbelievably freezing, like Boston freezing which you’d think I would be used to since um hello, hometown, but nope I was wearing 2 pairs of pants, three sweaters, gloves, hat, winter boots and coat, and two scarfs and it still wasn’t enough. We were able to see the Brandenburger Tor, the Reichstag, Checkpoint Charlie, where the wall used to be…. and that was about it. Sure we were there for about 36 hours, but there was too much to see and not enough time to see it in the freezing cold. And I was sick. So on Monday I went to the doctor’s office just to make sure everything is ok only to find out that getting a stomach bug twice in one month is not necessarily normal and the doc thinks I have a stomach ulcer from the stress of moving abroad, starting a new job, and other miscellaneous stressful things. No one tells you that when you move abroad that this is a possibility. I mean did you ever hear that someone moves abroad and their physical health gets worse and their mental health is not what it used to be, mostly from stress but also can be contributed to loss of your belongings you had to say goodbye to in order to board the flight, you can’t talk to your friends as much anymore, things are just so…. different. This can lead to stress and depression which is completely normal.
Which leads me to friendship. I’ve been here for about 5 months now and I’ve made approx. 1 friend. I have casual acquaintances at work, but that’s about it. I’ve met a few bloggers here but our timing and lives never seemed to match up, and what’s the point of that. I could try to do the Internations thing so I can actually meet and keep some friends here, but my mind just isn’t ready for the mingling and such just yet. How do other people make friends in a new country not necessarily known for being overly friendly OR having crossovers in the form of professional and personal relationships? I mean I’m not at school anymore, I can’t meet people in similar situations to mine who happen to be studying and living in the same dorm- that’s how I met the G-Man and other friends. I finished school and although I need to begin my level 2 German classes, this is the extent of which I will be meeting people similar to me.
And future-wise, I’m going back to the US this March and I’m excited. I want to see the only two members of my family who actually give me the time of day and treat me with such love and care, and my friends that make me laugh and seem to appreciate my wackiness, although my California sister won’t be there, I hope to see her later this year. That was a run-on sentence, am I right? And after this trip, I will work for months than hightail it Italy for a week or two. And then at Christmas time, I might go to California to spend time with my sister from another mother and mister lol.
Sure it might not all be quite as awesome as I thought it would be when I moved here, but is just as different as I knew it would be. I may not have a lot of friends, and I may get often enough, but it is fun in-between all these things and my future is shaping up very nicely. We’ll see how it all plays out.