Please disregard my absence, I’ve been busy making plans and trying to work out things. Also my job has been beyond stressful these last 2 weeks. But now I’m on my 2 week vacation, which I feel is not only much deserved but well-earned. What am I going to do with my time?
I’m going to Italy of course!!! And making an appointment to get married in Germany too<—– more on that later.
I’ve been also reading a few books about living abroad and how to be happy in life. Despite my reluctance, they were actually really good. I know what I’m going through is normal, and even though it sucks, it’s still quite manageable. As for life, I have a lot of thinking to do. What do I want, where do I want to go, how am I going to do it? And do I apply too much pressure on myself and make unreachable goals? Lots of good questions without a lot of answers. But they’ll come eventually. At this point, I really have to go with the flow, and most people who know me also know this is not my strong suit.
But I do know that I love living in Europe- I don’t love the people much here yet; my attempts at making/retaining genuine friendship, however wholeheartedly I try, haven’t been as awesomely successful as expected. But I’ll keep at it. Working in Germany has been increasingly difficult….. has anyone else come here from America and worked a job that was far below your paying/respectable/skill set requirements standards? If so, how did you overcome that?? My boss at work is one of my least favorite people and I found out that I’m literally the bottom on the totem pole at work, title and pay-wise, and yet I have the same educational success as my boss. How do I overcome that? Anyone with knowledgeable advice on this subject, please respond. All of my life I’ve been ambitious, successful and never short on work. I’ve at least been respected. But this….this makes me feel completely inconsolable. I’ve worked hard back home, and finding a job there can be trying but thankfully, I’m sometimes quite smart and I have a great education, so I usually find a way. Here, I feel like there is nothing I can do. Please help me on this….
In other areas, I’m really trying hard. I’m hoping to not only have my Thanksgiving extravaganza again this year, but having a small Halloween get-together also. I need to cook like I used to, and have fun again. I’m pretty sure these worry wrinkles will at least get a bit smaller. Anyone else trying to get out there and try to be more social?
Thanks for reading and I’ll let you know how Italy goes!!